My first month as a Linnberg

Just about a month ago, Jan and I married with our toes in the sand! A whole MONTH already! And it took a month to get my name officially changed- paperwork, and lines and mail and paperwork and fees and waiting. But I made it. Came out the other side a Linnberg. Ash Linnberg. Ashley Linnberg. Mrs. Linnberg. …WEEEIRD. A little neat, but still weird. Wondering when speaking it out loud and using the phrase “my husband” will feel normal. Speaking of- my husband and I have been living the good married life and haven’t found reasons to kill each other. #marriedAF Every morning is a fresh one. Fresh snuggles and fresh eggs and fresh kisses and hugs. He claims marriage makes everything better, too. The way his clothes fit, the air, the food, house chores…everything is BETTER. Can’t argue him. I get better every damn day. ZING!

It’s almost June now, and school is coming to a close. Oliver is pumped! And *I* will have a FOURTH GRADER on my hands. Yeesh. The summer for our family will be packed with weekends outdoors, weekday park and pool trips, playdates, yoga, and family stuff. I intend on making more trips to the farm for hangs (both Linnberg and Olson farms), and having cook outs regularly. We may spend our days feeding ducks and going for walks and swimming or playgrounding. I want to get to the family museum every once and a while, too. Just so many THINGS I have planned, and only 12 weeks to do it all. On top of kid and family plans, I’m making personal goals for ME. I want and need to revisit my yoga books from school. Study up and learn and apply. I also have some books to read on deepening my yoga practice and spiritual connection shit that I am hoping is more “good vibes” than “praise the lord”. But if you know me and books, my track record for finishing a book is no bueno. Unless it is about magic and mythology #wishmeluck

Arthur, my nephew, is turning ONE already in less than a week! #T I M E F L I E S * and Frank will be TWO in a a couple weeks. We are throwing him a dinosaur/ Jurassic Park themed party! Kind of excited to decorate and bake and host. I really don’t mind it, and our house isn’t THAT bad at hosting our brood of fam and friends. Planning on it being outside with a blow up pool to splash in, piñata, games, and cupcakes! I mean, the kid is turning 2…the party is really for me, right?

summing it all up: life is good.

Can not complain much, even though I do. My family is happy and healthy. We have a roof over our heads and food in our bellies. I have great friends, amazing kids, and a husband who truly LOVES me. So yeah.. hashtag blessed.

PS*** tooting my yoga horn*** check out my class schedule and come to a class or two or three or ETC

 

#solongdejonge

ahhhh *big sigh* where to begin? where to begin! So much excitement has come into my life in such a short period of time. I mean, TONS of joy and omg-ness.
Janny came home mid-March *YASSSSS* But let me just say as much as it was a relief and joy it was equally difficult. At least for the first week he was home… So much adjusting to schedules and life, and don’t let anyone tell you things just “fall into place” like no time has passed. We butted heads, we argued, but in the end, we figured it out. He went back to work, and I dropped back into my normal routines. We handled it as best as we could, and I honestly love more for compromising and loving me through all of it (the deployment, the frustrations, the shit we dealt with when he came back, etc). He’s my biggest supporter, and I’m mad about him. Happy vibes and love making ensued #gushmush
It seemed like he was only back for a hot minute, then BOOM! St Patty stuff. BOOM! Brian’s bachelor trip to AZ. BOOM! Packing for Mexico! The preparation and anticipation for Mexico was delightful. The night before we left, I couldn’t sleep. Shocker, I know. But I was dwelling over lists and notes I left my sister (WHO IS A SAINT FOR LOOKING AFTER MY BABIES), and worried about being gone. You know, mom stuff. Then we were up before 5am to catch our flight out of Chicago. That drive was interesting, too…my GPS wasn’t working right, and we ended up driving out of the way (and avoiding a $75/day parking fee) for probably an extra hour at least. Jan was freaking that we’d miss the flight…BUT! We (obviously) made it just fine.

M E X I C O 

We took a flight straight to Cancun, and had a special/VIP ride to the resort waiting for us.

we have arrived!

The resort is beautiful. The staff, same. Everyone was overly nice and helpful. Made our stay so comfy. Our guests/BFFs arrived over the next two days, and heavy partying was under weigh. The whole group rocked. Just…Incredibly fun and perfect for celebrating us. The guys were each given a “spirit animal” t-shirt (Jan passed them out after the rehearsal dinner), and it had ALL of us dying. He had little speeches/ reasons why he chose each friend’s animal…I think Mike’s ‘fried chicken’ shirt topped them off nicely! Rocky’s pig shirt was equally hilarious.

ANIMAL PACK

Every day was gorgeous and sunny, and every night was boozy and warm. I got to wear all the swim suits and all the dresses and buckets of sunscreen (after I burnt pretty bad the first day…dat mexican sun). We ventured to the beach a couple nights (THE MOON WAS INSANE), went to the “night club” and dance-sweated our tits off,  but most nights it was SPORTS BAR (inside joke, but trust me…it is funny).  Beach days were the best days. Salty air and hair, super sun tans, endless palomas & margaritas, and of course beach yoga.

#maegnash

my tribe ❤

 

We even splurged and spent a couple days on some excursions! Chichen Itza (fun ride, insanely hot, but dem ruins tho) was all day pretty much. The driver took us to a restaurant on the way home, too, so we got to get some grub off the resort. And another day we rented a private catamaran and got to snorkel! SO MUCH EFFING FUN. So many fish swimming around us, and sea turtles and sting rays and eels…wild. And the guys who ran the boat were pretty cool- we even got TEQUILA TIME before we were finished! That was such a great day…

old stuff is cool

#merca

these guys ❤

The morning of the wedding was spent in true girly fashion. Brunchies, mimosas, and facials with my ladies. I decided this was a good time to give the girlies my little gift (pura vida friendship bracelets!) while we toasted with champagne and ate all the fruit (except that papaya..ew). We met up with the dudes for some drinks on the lazy river, spent time at the beach,  and took our time in between. Maeg even lead a little yoga flow on the beach! #mypoot

By the time I had to get dressed, it hit me. I AM GETTING MARRIED. Like, M A R R I E D married. My blouse and skirt went together beautulfy (top was from a thrift store, and the skirt was off Amazon.com #fancy), but thankGOD for Cassie and Maeg. Getting that skirt on and off was a feat in itself. It was about that time, and one of the hotel staff came to the room to deliver my bouquet… I don’t know why, but seeing and holding that damn bouquet had me in tears! They were perfect-so bright and pretty (gerber daisies, my fave). I was sniffling and wiping my face so we could take a few pics before the ceremony when I caught a glimpse of myself in the window. Ughhhh crying for real, but like ugly crying. I WAS A BRIDE, you guys.  whew… I was able to pull myself together by the time the wedding coordinator arrived to take us to the wedding location.

this is real life!!!!!

They gave us a ride to the spot on the beach we were gonna be, and Cassie and Maeg were escorted to their places almost right away. I remember I was just standing there taking BIG, deep breathes and trying not to pace. Thinking “omgomgomgomgomgomg” and trying not to cry. And just like that~ it was my turn to walk down the beach. The set up was gorgeous. Perfection. White linen on the two rows of chairs, white canopy, and that mariachi band! As I got closer, I felt my fluster melt away. Jan was grinning ear to ear, and all was right. We spoke our vows from the heart/off the hip (totally impromptu), and poured some marriage sand into a marriage vase, and said “I do.” *Ahhh just bursting thinking about how happy I was in that moment*** And then the twist (Jan, always with the surprises).

I took that man to be mine!

Right before Jan was supposed to kiss his bride, he looks out at everyone and says (loudly), “Before I kiss my bride, there’s something I need to do”…and he proceeds to unbutton his shirt, kick off his shoes, and slide his shorts down into the sand below his feet. Two words: TUXEDO SPEEDO. And not just him! ALL THE DUDES had them secretly on under their clothes, and begun stripping right there on the beach in broad daylight!! On-lookers were gawking and holding up their phones, I was laughing along with everyone else. SO SO fun. and SO SO my husband. Naturally, we had a photo opp.

wife/queen

 

 

So… for those of you who aren’t my FB friend and can’t view the full montage of photos from this trip, there are some posted up on the grams. There is a lot more I could write about- more deets and more fun memories-but I think I’ll spare ya. The friends who celebrated that week with us know what went down and how awesome it was, and I can’t thank them enough for being there. Cassie, Maeg, Lora, Allison, Lindsay, Jilly, Beth, Whitney, Elyse, Kevin, Brandon, Kasjen, Rocky, Mike, Jason, Matty, Spencer, Jeff, and Brian… you are the greatest friends we could ever ask for, and from the bottom of my married heart I want to thank you for showing up. We love you guys.

luckiest couple on the planet.

And sooo, #solongdejonge was a total success. Aside from losing my voice and almost cutting my toes off on those damn secret ocean rocks…It was epic. Never drank so much in my life! Never been so happy.  Very ready to begin the next chapter in my life as a wife and a Linnberg!

xo

because love

We, as humans, are lucky enough to fall in love. However many times, however long, however blissful or painful… we can feel love and give love unconditionally. It is incredible, isn’t it? Through all the heartbreak and fights and down and outs and loneliness we may feel, there is always love. Really BIG love. Heart-wrenching, body-aching, head-over-heels love. I consider myself lucky! Jan is that big love. After nearly 6 years (2 of which were long distance!), I still have butterflies… He makes my heart pound so hard I clutch my chest. He makes me crazy with frustration and wild with lust. He takes away my worry and amplifies my joy. He is the most considerate and the most forgiving. He is always the center of attention and he is always the funniest person in the room. He gets me. He makes me feel beautiful. He cares about my feelings and encourages my goals. And he truly loves me. ME. He knows my faults, and loves me regardless. It is the kind of love that makes single people cringe. For real.
So, why do I brag, I mean blog, about this? Because I am happy. And because I love expression through words. #nerd

…”you become your own personal therapist. and when you really commit to the process, you find yourself saying exactly what you need to hear.” -Frankie, Grace&Frankie

I don’t ever expect anything to come about from my blogging. Ever. Or my journaling. The only “reason” I have written/vented/complained on paper or online, is to help myself. It is [free] self help. It is therapeutic. It’s the whole get-things-off-my-chest/ clean slate feeling. When I finish journaling or blogging, I feel fresh. Like a BIG BIG sigh. All the shit that floats and swirls around in my brain gets put somewhere else. And often times, I am forced to deal with shit I may have been avoiding. Therapy. See? So, if you are someone who has never kept a diary or written lists or blogged, please try it. There is only clarity. Or full-on random rants. Either way, good stuff.

fam

Other good stuff: My babies. Being a mother is unlike any other adventure I could have imagined.  My boys challenge me EVERY GOD DAMN DAY, and I am a better person because of them. Mothers are the least judgmental and most judgmental people I know..but it makes sense. We are in charge of tiny humans. We are responsible for their well-being and upbringing (shout out to all single moms and dads out there!) and all the in-between shit. We are their end-all…their favorite people and their worst nightmares. But we KNOW that, and we parent on anyway. Our kids won’t always think we are the greatest thing since Daniel Tiger, and they won’t always stay little. Having an 8-year-gap between my two boys really puts time in perspective. I love my Oliver very differently than I do Frank. Is that ok to say? I mean it like this. I love Ollie with a respect and expectation that I can’t love Frank with right now. And I love Frank with a sense of wonder …oh fuck it. I sound ridiculous. My point is! The age difference between my babies is amazing. I love it. I love how I can equally share time and experiences with them without feeling guilty. Oliver is a HUGE help and loves his baby brother so much…

I am just full of love. ALL THE LOVE. My family is amazing. I am happy in love. I get to marry the man of my DREAMS, and I’m bursting. It is fucking pathetic how full of love I am. And also grateful… I appreciate my life. My kids. My man… It is such an overwhelming feeling I welcome with open arms. I deserve this. Everyone deserves to feel this.

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My Janny and I will be reunited in less than 2 weeks. CAN YOU FEEL THE EXCITEMENT!?!!!?

 

self love.

self love. *takes a deep breath* self love, for me, isn’t something I’ve ever struggled with really. I love me. I love my life, and I’m always comfortable being myself… and I feel loved. Which is why I get so mad at myself for being (suddenly) so self conscious about my body. The scale, the mirrors, trying on bikinis, and comparing myself to others. BAD. bad Ash. I psych myself out, I think, and convince myself that 5 or 10 more lbs on a scale means I’m not Ash. Crazy, right? In my mind, I have how I should look (to myself or how others see me), and it doesn’t match what I see in the mirror. It is so silly, right? Writing it out makes me feel even more ridiculous for thinking/admitting it. But it isn’t uncommon. This stuff is shoved in our faces and down our throats every damn day. “For a beautiful body”…”Get abs NOW”…”The look you want” ETC ETC ETC  It is rough being a lady in the world, and on top of that we have this notion that we should be a certain way/fit into this mold that is absolutely impossible. I am lucky enough to have VERY good friends who support me no matter what, tell me truths and empower me. I know I am strong. I know I am beautiful. I know I don’t NEED to lose 20lbs (rolls eyes for everyone in the universe). Maybe, for me, this nonsense started after Jan left. And then the new year came around (resolution BS). And now I’m sweating just thinking about seeing my love and MARRYING HIM on a beach. All that probably did it. yeah. I mean…I just need to stop. stop the negative self talk and amp up the self love. I feel I’m not the only person who should take that advice.

Until next time~ chill, breathe, and spread those happy vibes

on hold

It seems that the life we were living has stopped in a way. Paused. Sure, time is moving. The kids get baths and dinner and go to school [mostly] on-time, the chores and to-dos continue on. But the real bits (the shared “us” bits) are on hold.
Bummer: Every “free” moment I find is without him. The moments before sleep are spent missing his voice and tiny kisses. Every movie watched, every lazy Sunday, every joke made, every night in is without him … they are all moments we aren’t making memories together.
Upside: We only have 6-ish weeks left of this!  The end of November and the entirety of December were the worst weeks, but NOW! Now it is all downhill and I can see a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel. I am quite overjoyed! I lay awake at night thinking about that moment when I get to see him again. The moment, I imagine,  where I run up to him, lunge and jump into his DREAMBOAT arms, breathe him in/shower him with a million kisses all over his face, and wipe my happy tears all over his cheeks. Just like the opening scene in Love Actually, it will be perfect.  It will be such a relief! I’ve been thinking about it for weeks… And it is just around the corner!
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Things in my brain:
-I really want to write (in my journal) more consistently *bullet journaling?
-Oliver starts basketball next week…on top of piano lessons, gymnastics, and school. Gotta get on my mom A-game
-Frank is talking all.the.time. He babbles on and on about who knows what a lot of the time, but also will repeat what you ask him to say-dangerous and hilarious
-I started watching Mozart in the Jungle (per Courtney) and am in love
-I cleaned the floors, walls, tables, laundries and kitchen today… I FEEL AMAZING. There is nothing quite like sitting down with a beer after going berserk on your house with broom and clorox. That, and I really enjoy the smell of these scentsy cubes (I think I am using a eucalyptus one now) #recommend
-I ate a slice of pizza in my bed last night…first time since college, I’m sure. It felt good.
-I’m co-hosting a prenatal yoga challenge on IG starting Monday, and I implore anyone who loves yoga challenges to join! It is exciting, and I can personally attribute yoga to helping me ease through my pregnancy and delivery…
-I have started this mantra/affirmation kind of thing that I tell myself in the mornings and throughout the day. So far, minimal return. But I am sticking with it because I want to and I think it will ultimately sink in. I set intention not just on my yoga mat, because I INTEND to be a more patient person. Patient and clear-minded. I hope to make this year one that is full of joy and positivity and strength. No more negative shit. NONE!
-Is it possible for me to live more minimalistically? <- is that not a word? As a mother and homemaker, I am so aware of all the THINGS we have accumulated. Looking just in front of me: toys (so. many. god damn toys.), DVDs, shoes, clothes… Stuff! Lots of stuff I am SURE there is plenty we have that I could donate/get rid of and no one would notice. I just wonder how one starts. I’ve already purged my closets and dumped 2 trash bags of clothes, etc off. I know I have more to clear out, too… Just a thought.

AND IN CASE YOU NEEDED REMINDING!
Jan and I are MARRYING April 14th in Mexico! Can not WAIT to celebrate with my love and all of our good friends!

Maybe in the cold, cold snow 

Hello, it’s me.


Windy days seem longer with the weather shifting. Fall turning air colder and I hear the wind whistling through the cracks between the front door. Snow is coming soon. And I know that means more…More indoor time. More play dates. More yoga. More things to occupy my mind. Or more time to dwell on Jan. My beloved. My FIANCÉ!

He is away at the most snuggly time of the year. My head swirls with thoughts. With worry. With what ifs.

What if we won’t recognize each other? When this change ends, and we come back to us. What if he is all “fitness model, beach body Ken” and I’m like “plus-size, mommy-needs-more-wine Barbie” in yoga pants? Surely he will wanna make out! Yeah?…I mean, mom butts prevail, right?! #marryme

What if he looks at me differently? 6 months feels longer than 6 months. Will he love me more? Can he? Should I work harder? I haven’t cooked scrambled eggs since he left. Do I need to send more photos and videos of the boys?  Is he really okay? Do I really need to lose 15lbs? What else do I have to obsess over…

What if I break down? What do I do *when* I break down? Because it happens. Is that normal? Is that ok? Does he do the same? Does he cry when the weight feels heavy on his chest? Or does he go run/lift for the 2nd time in the day? Does he listen to Bob Iver radio?? I LOVE BON IVER. #nojudgement. I love re-watching Tumbledown and Like Crazy and Broken English…so what? Does he think about our wedding?  Does he know about happenings? Does he think I’m safe? And is he worried Don Trump is gonna grab all the pussies before he comes back? Ew. Sorry… but serious. Does he know I can handle this but have my moments? IM A LADY WITH REAL EMOTIONS!

I know I’m not alone in my thoughts. And I know things could be exponentially worse. But still-it would be nice to share these feelings &  confide in someone without being told I’m “looking for pity”. It would be nice to be human, and miss my best friend (him being gone by choice or not), without being told I’m crazy. No one knows how this feels until they are in this exact place. And no one should be able to make me feel more alone. Anyone who thinks they know how this feels/is, doesn’t. Unless they have this happen to them. It doesn’t matter if Jan is my friend, my boyfriend, my fiancé or my husband… no title changes how we feel about each other. No title comforts me when I’m sobbing into a pillow at 2am because I had a bad dream and he’s not there to shush me back to sleep. A title can’t hold your hand or hug and kiss you. You see? It doesn’t matter what Jan is to me. It matters who he is. He is my person. And he and I are apart for a while, and it sucks. And I’m ALLOWED to be upset about that regardless. I can’t help how I feel when I feel or what I feel. This is to be human. Man or woman- we all have our issues.

I’m grateful for my mama bear friends. I’m grateful for my family -who are only a phone call away. I’m thankful Jan is safe tonight, and we get to text everyday…

So, here comes December. All badass and wintery like a zombie Jon Snow only less sexy.  I hope it goes quickly. I look forward to Christmas with my mom and siblings. I hope my man stays safe (and sends more topless pics). I hope my babies hang in with me for a while longer. I hope for all good things. And I look forward to Santa sending an elf to shovel my driveway.

Cheers. Happy holidays, y’all.

When your person is away…

As most of you know, Jan is in Afghanistan till March. You know, saving the world and being beautiful and flirting with women in burkas. So this leaves myself, Ollie, Frank, Odin and 3 cats to tend to the house and each other for 6 months. After 2 weeks and 2 days, I can honestly say that this isn’t my ideal situation. I mean, I’ve had bouts of crying, eating, drinking, hiding in the bathroom, sleeplessness, depression, hysterics, denial, and fake smiling. I’ve also cried into my cat more than once. Literally. I put my face on Dennis’s body and sobbed..and you know what? It made me feel equally psychotic and relieved. And Dennis doesn’t seem to mind. I knew all these things would arise. I’d feel all the feels and have struggles maintaining the kids and house and chores and whatnot. It really helps that many of my lovely friends have reached out to help…seriously! It doesn’t go unnoticed, and I will (eventually, if not already) take you up on the offer. Whether it’s babysitting while I shower/get a manicure, or cooking dinner for us, or just being an ear to vent to- I truly love all of you for the support. It means everything. Also, putting up with me is just something you’ll have to do. So, sorryimnotsorry about any mood swings that may occur.

I do get to chat with Janny most days, and it’s what I look forward to the most. That, and it being a reasonable hour for me to have a beer. Can I say that? #nojudgement
His face and voice and antics make me happy. And nobody will ever make me laugh like he can, so it’s great when I do get to hear from him bc laughter is a great mood lifter. He seems to be doing ok, even though his room looks like a scarier version of my college dorm room. Despite his tiredness (from working 7 days a week, 8-10 hours/day), he still manages to make time for me and the boys. Always with a smile or a joke… He is just the best, really. I love him more than I can express.

I’m blogging today from my front porch while Arthur and Frank nap, so I’m trying to hurry through*
U MMMM

OH! This is my BIRTHDAY MONTH!! Yes, yes, yes..I know you’ve ALL been wondering when you could send me gifts and vodka, and I’m pleased to tell you the wait it OVER! Send me all the things! I turn (had to think about it, counting the years on my fingers) 31 this Thursday, and I’ll probably bring in the new age with baby vomit, shitty diapers, and microwave corndogs. And all that, in all its yucky and blahness, is okay. I love being me and I love my life here. I love the chaos and the to-do lists and the babies and all of it. I love it because I worked hard to get here. I’m a good mama with a sense of humor (which, let’s be real, a lot of moms don’t have!), and I worked hard this summer and made sacrifices to get my yoga instructor certificate! I’m proud of me. And I’m proud of my family. I’m in love with the man of my dreams- like, insane, over-the-moon, can’t catch my breath, exploding heart, big BIG love. My boys are healthy and beautiful and SMART. I love my house and my neighborhood. I love DENNIS… There is so much to be thankful for, and my heart is overflowing with gratitude.

On that note~ I want you to get happy, too, and find some goodness in your day/life! Hold on to it, and enjoy positive moments! I sound like a hippy, but what I’m saying and feel is true:

One happy moment in your day can change your entire outlook!

Find that moment and spread good vibes 🙂

XO

In September

School is under way. The weather is changing. Pumpkin-flavored beers and lattes fill our feeds. Leaves are turning yellow, and lawn mowers seem louder. Fall is coming #Starksdidntwarnus

I like to listen to Ray LaMontagne, and Death Cab’s Plans album. I like to sip a good, dry red wine on my porch. I like to clean with the windows open. I like to wear oversize sweatshirts from Jan’s closet. There are all these things I love doing in September, and I know there are lots more I’m leaving out. But this September is unlike others. This September means Jan is leaving for 6 months. This September is bitter and empty. This September feels cold and heavy. And I don’t want to do memorable, feel-good things because my person won’t be here to enjoy them with me.

So yeah. There is that. And most of you know about it because you’re my friends and we told you about it. Whatever..My point is that this fall/winter will be different. I’ll be cranky, moody, whiny, and lonely. I’ll probably cry like a pregnant person, and be a giant puddle of mush. You have been warned.

I’ve got 13 days left with my best friend. Ollie and Frank have less than 2 weeks left with Daddy. And I feel it goes without saying…but it really, fucking sucks bad. Six months is a while. And, I know we discussed this-it was our decision to make- but it will still be a challenge. And Jan and I are soulmates, so we will be fine in the end… I just get so choked up about it all. This is one of 2 Sundays we will spend together until next year. Every kiss and every hug are counted. All the jokes and lovies are counted. This is really real life.

Now I have to go outside and help clean out the gutters. You know, normal family/house happenings. I’ll sniff up the sad for now and breathe slow.

Every.
Moment.
Counts.

#SAHMlife and updates

My life revolves around my boys (duh). Keeping them up-to-date on happenings and dates and sports and lists and goings on is my jam. And I kind of love it. I’m sort of a beacon for anything…they look to me for lots of things everyday, and I truly appreciate it. Being a mom is a lot more than 3 little letters~ I run this ish. That being said, I know how important it is to live in the now and love something in every day on top of knowing what needs to get done and what needs planning. It is a CRAZY unexplainable process, but somehow it gets done. I’m not taking full credit here (because Jan is a pretty damn good parent, too!), there is just something that needs to be said for moms #SUPERPOWERS

Since my last entry, life is doing what it does- just chugging along. My sweet baby Frank is, too. He is crawling e v e r y w h e r e, growing teeth, pointing at all the things and grunting, waving hi & bye occasionally, and still co-sleeping with yours truly. This week I have been cracking down on moving Frank to his crib. Mostly because my sister will be looking after him for a week in May while I’m out of town, and I don’t want her to have issues with him sleeping in the bed. I need to get Frank on a new schedule where he’s not waking up 3 times a night to nurse. It’s been interesting so far, I mean, it’s only been a couple nights and he’s slept in the crib from 9pm-1am, so… Stay tuned & wish me luck!

27lbs, 30 inches tall, and still the happiest baby boy

4 tiny teeth!

mat time with mama #babytreepose

Jan and I just celebrated our 5-YEAR anniversary, BTDUBZ! No big whoop except HE’S THE FOREVER LOVE OF MY LIFE etc etc mushiness. We partied downtown for St Pattys weekend, and danced and drank and loved…it was oodles of good times. It’s strange only 5 years have gone by- it feels longer. We’ve been through 2 years of long-distance dating (4-hours apart), buying a house, ODIN, and now Franky boy… I just feel stupid lucky because he is the best. THE best. Mostly and usually, anyway. 🙂


  

Another cool thing that is going to be happening soon:

I’m going to get my yoga certification this summer!!!!

Classes begin at the end of May and finish in August, so come September, I’ll be a certified yoga instructor! And I’m just ABSOLUTLEY thrilled/nervous/overjoyed to be able to pursue something I’m this passionate about !! (Cue the yoga pics!)

  
  
  
  
SO! I’ve got plenty to look forward to: Frank crawling/learning to walk, Oliver finishing 2nd grade!, traveling lots, yoga school, and new baby Linnberg (Whitney is due in 2 months!)!!

Feels pretty great to be me. #loveyourlife

NAMASTE

 

 

It’s the FINAL COUNTDOWN!!

Week 30 is here and on its way out, so that means we are counting down into single-digit weeks, people! Franky Boy is gearing up and putting on the chubby-cheek pounds for his big debut! I did have that second glucose screening a couple weeks ago and ALL WAS WELL (yay!) #tinyvictories I had to go in to the lab first thing in the morning to have my blood drawn because they want you to fast for 12 hours (ugh), which turns into 15-16 hours once all the blood draws are done (UGHHHH). It wasn’t too bad, but I was SO hungry when I got out of there that my hands were shaking. BUT! Those results were normal, so I don’t know why my first test was so “elevated”…

Anyway~ third trimester happenings: I weigh 186 lbs now (total weight gained=23 lbs). I’ve been craving sweets but only immediately after eating something salty. I feel way huge, like, it is a struggle sitting up out of bed every morning. I can’t really do ANYTHING without being short of breath, and baby is moving/kicking me all over in there making it trickier to do anything really.   The nursery is ready except for a few items! I’ve received several baby gifts from some very lovely friends/fam so far, and it REALLY is so appreciated. I still have us registered at Target for those reading this and wanting to buy a gift! I have another check-up appointment next Thursday afternoon, and I think I’ll ask about an ultrasound. I think he said he would do one to make sure the baby is in the correct position, but I don’t know for sure when or if that will happen.

nursery is coming along nicely!

I am still working here at North High with my lovely caseload of students. I really love what I do here, and will miss it when I have to leave. This is one of the most unstressful, rewarding jobs I’ve had, and I’ve only got about 20 working days left before I finish! There are a couple students (and a teacher or two) who have told me that I’m “not allowed” to leave, which makes me happy and sad at the same time. I know they appreciate me, and I’m guessing they will miss me when I’m gone…

we R so kewt

Speaking of MISSING people! My Janny Boy is back home FINALLY! He was in Kansas for 3 weeks on business (bc he is awesome and in charge of shit), but is home now. I missed him oodles upon boatloads!! Yeah, yeah I know you all thoroughly enjoy reading my mushies and whatnot. Jan is the best and I love him and happy and kisses and marriage and omg we are having a real baby soon and HECANNEVERLEAVEAGAIN4E!

Spring Break (said in my James Franco voice) came and went ,as well. My MUM and SISTER came here to visit Ollie and I for several days, and it was just SO GOOD~

IOWA FAMILY VISIT, Spring 2015!

shopping day!

sister sister💕👏

My dear sister, Lou, drove up from Colorado (a tedious 13-hr drive) last Tuesday & Mum flew in the following morning. AND SO OUR REUNION VISIT BEGAN! T’was so marvelous and lovely having them here. Lou had been here once before, but this was Momma’s first time to the wonderful city of Davenport. She met Jan’s folks over lunchies one afternoon. I gave her the GRAND tour at the “Linnberg Mansion” after we ate, and then we sat around and chatted about this and that. She had nothing but nice things to say about it #duh. I just realized we didn’t take a photo of them together! Grr. Will have to do so when she comes back in a couple months! Anyway, Lou and Oliver were pretty much inseparable the entire time. Oliver is a Lou hog. And I’m pretty sure she’s had enough of Beyblade battles- especially since Ollie insisted on changing the rules so he’d win everytime! We did get some movie time, Whitey’s & Happy Joe’s Pizza, and lots of slugging around in while they were here. Friday, we went shopping for baby things 🙂 Ma is already spoiling her grandson! Jeff and Whit stopped by briefly one night and got to meet my ma. That was nice of them! Jan came back Friday night and was able to spend a little time with everyone before they had to leave. After Lou left Saturday morning, Jan went to help our bff’s move into their new house (A WHOLE OTHER EXCITING THING THAT HAPPENED #YAY). Mom, Ollie and I ventured out to see the town a bit. It was warmer that morning, so I drove down by the river and took Ma to the Farmer’s Market. I explained how big and awesomely fun it gets in the summer time (because right now there aren’t too many vendors and a LOT less people), but she did get to see/hear an older gentleman playing his cello on the stage for a bit. Which was so cool, by the way. He was playing it sideways, and was really good at it.  We went to lunchies at 11th Street in the East Village. So, so yummy. After the running around, we came back home to chill and stuff. Momma packed up her things and got ready for the flight back to Florida. Jan did come home in time to say goodbye to her, and I drove her to the airport. It is always less fun hugging goodbye, BUT it wasn’t that bad this time because we knew we would see each other VERY soon. I mean, this baby is coming in like, 2 months!

I’ve been wondering about how Oliver will handle Frank. I’m sure it will all turn out fine, but I get a little strange worry-like feeling sometimes thinking about it. “Ollie, this is Frank. You are a big brother now!” and I can see him being pumped about it, but also not wanting to hold or be around him at first. Not sure if it’s because he is an only child and he won’t be soon, or if it’s because he is a kid and kids don’t typically love babies. Hell, some adults don’t love babies, so I don’t really expect him to fall in love with Frank immediately. I don’t want him to feel neglected, and have explained to him how infants need a lot of mommy’s attention. I’ve talked about how that doesn’t mean I am going to ignore him purposefully, and that he is still my Ollie forever and ever…but no parent can really fully prepare their first born for his/her sibling. I need to think up some possible ideas for celebrating Oliver when Frank is born (because I think that will make it more fun for him). Like, bake him a big brother cake or get him gifts or both!

M A R R I A G E

And ANOTHER happy/celebratory thing that happened***** ———->

Jan’s older bro, BJ, (FINALLY) got hitched to his darling lady this week! I, obviously, couldn’t make it to their ceremony in the MOUNTAINS, but I am still so thrilled for them. And don’t they look DASHING!? Gah.. can’t wait to see them and hugs them when they come visit this summer 🙂

**Until next post!**

XO