Sick week, quick post.

Just when I thought I had made it through the winter without getting the flu, BAM. Flu bomb goes off causing all kinds of mayhem. I wasn’t terribly concerned Monday when I felt nauseous at work (after all, pregnant), but when I threw up and the pain in my gut became more unbearable over a period of 2 hours, I went home. It wasn’t long after I was curled up on my bed that I felt that ole familiar chill- the god damn flu got me. Achy bones, paralyzing nausea, cold and hot at the same time- yep, I had all the symptoms. I called my doctor’s nurse, who had me sipping fluids and resting as much as possible. I didn’t really eat much until Wednesday night. FYI to all you pregnant ladies~ if you get the flu and are having any of these issues, you need to get in to the doctor asap: unable to keep fluids down, have any spotting, or don’t feel baby moving. Luckily, I made it through the really bad days, and am feeling pretty normal today. Last night, I was worried I might have given my illness to Oliver. He was complaining his head hurt, was fussing with a runny nose and had that sick look in his eyes. He even cried himself to sleep (saying his head was hurting so bad). But luckily, this  morning he woke up and was better. I kept him home from school to make sure- brought him breakfast in bed, and had him drink lots of water and rest. We colored pictures for our family, and even had a little Skype date with Aunt Woolou! #yay

In other newssss, as we approach our 27th week of pregnancy, Jan and I have finally come to an agreement on a name for our baby boy!

Frank Linnberg, it is!

Still working on a middle name, but Frank sure is gonna be one loved bundle of joy 🙂 And for those who follow me on Instagram, I’m sure you know me well enough to know your feeds shall be blown by all the baby photos. #noapologies


Happy feels good

things that make me happier:

good hair days
banana chocolate chip muffins
kisses/lovey hellos&goodbyes from Janny Boy
pants that aren’t too tight/too loose
starting a new journal (so crisp~)
funny snapchats from Jess
a good morning mix (currently playing: siriusXMU radio)

And today is a good-mood kind of day. Thursdays are usually good because the middle of the week is over-onward to the weekend, AND I have yoga w/ Roberta and the other preggo ladies (which is a perk in my week).

Last week was not-so-goodfeeltimes, because I was having “crampy” issues and was at the doctor/off work a few days. Turned out alright, and yes, I’ll admit Jan was right– Doc said I need to “take it easy”. Apparently, being pregnant means you’re not supposed to do manual labor/strain yourself or get overly stressed (ie: shovel snow, lift/carry heavy objects up and down stairs, worry about all the things, etc). The pain I was having was in my lower, left abdomen and sometimes on both lower sides. Doc said that it was either ligament pain from my insides/outsides stretching to giant size, overworking my body, and/or stress. I have to coach myself out of dwelling on worrisome thoughts. But it is difficult…My mind goes on and on: is Ollie getting enough of my attention? Does the dog hate me? Did I switch laundry? I shouldn’t have snapped and yelled like that. I apologize all the time. Everyone thinks I’m always mad. Am I a downer now? Am I the worst? Does this baby think I am crazy? I need to nap, but there are dishes in the sink. I should read more books. The house is filthy- I need to vacuum, mop, paint, clean CLEAN. My house is forever unclean…
See? I am exhausting.

At prenatal yoga last week, we discussed obsessive thoughts. #APPROPRIATE
Every single woman in that class has the same/similar worries as I do! It was so uplifting to feel like I fit in (which, duh, we are all pregnant and hormonal so #besties). And it was such a relief, too. Finally…someone GETS it. And having this invisible weight lifted from my mind (the one marked “CRAZY LADY”) was l i b e r a t i n g. I feel lighter (which, for a woman who is nearing the 3rd trimester, feels lovely). I feel I can focus more on things that actually matter, like being happy and growing this baby, and easily dismiss stressful thoughts. All of these happy feels thanks to a small group of pregnant ladies who made me feel less like a schizophrenic and more like a strong, capable, miracle-growing woman. I recommend any pregnant woman to join in with another pregnant woman/women for chit chats and motivation and happy thoughts. Because for a lady like myself, surrounded by boys, having that support, camaraderie and input really, REALLY helps.

SEW (buttons) ~> aside from this week’s bitter cold weather, I can not complain. Life is good. Jan and Ollie are good (Oliver is having a WAY better week than last week). And food is good.

PS: Chinese New Year prediction for yours truly…

1925, 1937, 1949, 1961, 1973, 1985, 1997, 2009
It may seem to some as if nothing ever bothers you but that just shows what great self-control you possess. But when romance comes knocking this year — and it will — your emotions are likely to go haywire. Once your affections have been engaged there can be no turning back — the Ox mates for life. (-TRUEEEEE)

General prediction: 1/5 stars

Overview: Unexpected outcomes.

It isn’t a very wonderful year for those born under the zodiac sign of Bull, as you may meet some difficulties in almost all aspects of your life. However, you have to keep your spirits up, and be cautious when it comes to decision-making. As the saying goes, slow and steady wins the race: this how you should take on the year. Be careful of what you say or post online, it might trigger unnecessary altercations. As long as you take a positive approach, this seemingly bad year can be reasonably stable for you too. (-thinking positive, guys!!!!)

Love and relationships: 3/5 stars

Cupid is looking in your direction and single Bulls will meet many potential lovers. However, it may also be a headache when too many of them appear at the same time. Be responsible and careful when dealing with them. For those who are attached, your relationship will be tested. Hold on to the trust and confidence you have in your partner, for this will be to key to overcome any obstacles in your relationship (Janny Boy is my ROCK*). Married Bulls, be extra careful. There might be a third party attempting to interfere with your marriage, but be smart in handling the situation and avoid cold wars with your spouse. Communicate with your partner and your marriage will be fine in your own hands.

hold on chick: bumpy ride ahead

IMG_6183 BUMPIE … & my boys- “pancakes with Pop” at Ollie’s school

Mo’ belly, mo’ problems (updates, etc)

This entry is going to be in list form becauseIsaidso:

  • Ultrasound last week
    *photos below

    • At our last ultrasound, we were told/shown that I had a slight placental previa (where the placenta covers the cervix). Mine wasn’t too bad, but it still freaked me out. This ultrasound was mainly to check up on the issue. AND it corrected itself/moved away from my cervix,, so ALL IS WELL! Baby is healthy, and moving around like crazy!
    • Contractions…I’d been experiencing minor ones lately due to stress and possible overexertion. They can also be caused by dehydration, but since I drink boatloads of water, I deduced it was happening because of other things. The doctor advised I take it easier/relax, which is the obvious solution. Easier said than done, but I am working on it #forbabyssake
  • Compromising
    • Socially, Jan and I have always been pretty out there. We love to go out/be around people and live it up. Given my current “condition”, things have drastically changed*mainly for me. Being the dad in this has its responsibilities and whatnot, and I’m not talking bad or down on Jan- but! There needed to be a conversation and agreement about spending time “out” because I am physically (and most times mentally) unable to partake in once-loved social times. Mainly, I needed to express how unfair it felt that I was sacrificing all the things, while (SEEMINGLY) he did nothing different. We ended on good notes, I think, and because we both love each other (him a bit more bc he’s dealing with Ashzilla over here) we figured it out. Not just on one front (ex:going out every weekend), but on all (house/animal/Ollie responsibilities). I am thankful and RELIEVED we worked it out, and hope Jan isn’t just agreeing with everything I suggest/say because he is scared of me and my hormones. #TEAMJAN4E #LOVEYOUJANNYBOY
  • Oliver
    • Ollie has gotten involved in lots of activities – which is wonderful! He is now in gymnastics, basketball/soccer (soon after basketball), and piano. I think keeping him occupied and involved in things is so good and helpful for him- socially and educationally. AND he loves it.
    • “There’s a lot of attitudes going on around here…don’t let me get one.” *   Lately, and some days, he’s been rather grouchy in the mornings. And then there are times when he’s just rude to us or others. I’ve spoken with him several times about respect and behavior, and I feel it gets through, but then he does something cocky and I’m like “DUDE NO!” I think some of this has to do with him playing video games too much. Even though he only gets 20 minutes a day on either his tablet or the xbox, I feel that is all he wants to talk about. And he is missing out on conversations with everyone. So, I took the games and tablet away completely (this week is the first week of the test). I’m hoping by doing so, and adding in more hands-on/talking time, he will be better behaved. #UGHparenting
  • Jan’s birthday (see photos below!)
    • I was kind of stressed about his birthday. Because, does not planning a “bar crawl” party thing make me a bad gf? IDK. I think part of his agreeing with my decision to keep the celebration “chill” was because of our “compromise convo” and not bc he wanted to. BUT..oh well, I guess. I think the night went well, and I think everyone had a fun time. I probably put lots of unnecessary stress on myself for nothing #typical. At least he liked the gifts I gave him (?).
  • Belly probs (photos beeeelow)
    • Giant-sized issues, ya’ll. And I still have 3 months left. I can’t bend over without catching my balance. I’ve got trouble getting up once I’ve sat down. There is this overall uncomfortableness that I totally forgot about, and THE STRUGGLE IS REAL. There is no hustle in me- the hustle have left. My clothes really don’t fit, and I just feel…large. More students at school have noticed/said things to me, and more people I see often, too. Yeah, I’m pregnant. No, you can’t feel.
    • Another worry/issue: stretch marks and lotions. I apply liberal amounts of ALL the lotions multiple times a day. I apply to belly, thighs, booty and boobs. Yet, I’m still paranoid I will end up some wrinkly ol lady after all this. Maybe I will! No more bikinis? Oye…you know what, F it. If I end up stretched out/marked up, people will just need to deal with it. #bikinis4e You try having kids and looking like a Kardashian…I DARE YOU! #noairbrushing
  • Changes
    • Appetite: I have been craving a variety of foods. From ice cream to sweet potatoes, I want all the flavors. One bonus/plus is that I do drink oodles of water, and continue eating light snacks throughout the day. #somewhathealthy
    • Yoga movements/poses: Duh. We knew these were constantly changing. I make adjustments all the time, and will continue to do so. #lovemypractice
    • Energy levels: looooow. I feel most energetic in the morning til about 11am. Then I’m all, “beep boop bowww” shut down mode. I wish I could nap everyday…you think my boss would mind?
  • Wants
    • Massage/pedicure/ facial #SPAday. There isn’t much time or energy to do things I would like to do, but it’s good I have a list. I’ll get to them eventually 🙂



weight tracking from 1st doctor appt to latest

Today, I got to spend time with me (I haven’t been feeling well, and took the day off work). Also, got to see me some Ro&Shandra so that was a super perk. Evening plans include making BLTs for dinner, getting Ollie a bath, and watching Netflix in bed. Kind of the new “#TTT” for me, ad I love it. Jess would appreciate it, too. SPEAKING OF! JESSSSS- I know you’re reading this, and I just want to say ERMERGHERD I MISS YOU. Also, come live with me already.



Baby Linnberg at 6 months


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there’s a baby…right. in. there.



Twins being twins (31st bday desserts)



Janny Boy opening his gifts #birthdayboy


new shirt (might get 2 wears outta it before the buttons pop off)